The Face Behind the Faces

“Shine your Mind, H’, into my mind”                וּמֵחָכְמָתְךָ, אֵל עֶלְיוֹן, תַּאֲצִיל עָלַי, וּמִבִּינָתְךָ תְּבִינֵֽנִי

(from the early morning prayers)

It is said that Torah has seventy faces upon which we may gaze when we desire to approach Her, but only from an appropriate, respectful distance. The sacred text remains other. This practice is known as Torah study, a foundational component of the Jewish path, and one that serves many roles. For some it offers guidance in observing the precepts of the Law; others find in it profound insights into the largest questions of meaning of life, of the problem of good and evil, of existence as a whole; for yet others it is an intellectually exciting or a culturally enriching experience.

And there is another Torah study, one whose followers have been described variously as “reapers of the field,” or as “those who enter and leave in peace.” Their quest is for the Hidden Face that lies behind the seventy, and It takes them on a journey that is both marvelous and arduous; they must traverse many steps and stages of understanding, each of which requires persistence, intense refinement of being, and good guidance. Its  culmination is the station of bliss described by the Great Eagle* as that in which “the knower, the knowing and the known are one.”

 Of this it is said, “Shine your Mind, H’, into my mind

Go study!

 *Maimonides

Praying Your Way out of Egypt

זכר ליציאת מצרים                                                                                       הנני

In the traditional liturgy we recite the phrase “a remembrance of the exodus from Egypt” several times a day. Now were this to be only about the historical event, the frequency could be considered to be excessive.  However, the Hebrew word “Mitzrayim” (Egypt) can refer not just to a certain ancient kingdom, but also to another, inner state, one in which it is not the body that is held  in bondage but the soul itself that is captive, entangled within a web of false stories and imagined dramas.

Let us free! But the work is hard, the journey home is long. Were we to peel away each of the threads, all those obsolete myths,  ossified fears, promises unkept, and dreams unrealized, one at a time, it could take 10,000 years. But there is a shorter way:

Let soul clap its hands and pray, and louder pray.

Let us say: הנני Hineini. I Am H’, I am here!

A Minor Earthquake in Berkeley

ברוך מחיה המתים                                                                      ברוך שכוחו גבורתו מלא עולם

One evening last week, while I was at home dining with friends, the earth beneath us trembled, sharply, and I knew then the Terror and the Dread.  I died a little death. Though I did say yes, yes to your Strength and your Power,  I was not ready, H’, to stand naked before your Presence..

Within two or three seconds it was all over. “An earthquake,” we said nervously, “a small one, but very close.” We had a drink, and ended the evening together in closer companionship.

Praise be to H’, overturner of mountains, whose dread finger touched me!

Praise be to H’, raiser of the dead, whose sweet breath revived me!

Praise be to H’!

Remembering to remember

          Remember the Sabbath Day     זכור את יום השבת

There is a Shabbat that we celebrate once a week, twenty-five hours of sacred time devoted to  rest, fellowship, prayer, and spiritual reflection. On this day we separate ourselves from the physical world of commerce and manufacture, and strive to banish distractions that intrude from the quotidian. Observance of this Shabbat is a cornerstone of Jewish practice, and it is well guarded by law and by custom.

Of this it is said: Shamor! Guard!

And there a Shabbat that is present at all times, the center point. This Shabbat is a faint light that emerges from the source of all being. Subtle, hidden, it abides in mystery,  and is revealed only in rare moments of solitary contemplation,  or when ritual acts are performed  in perfect alignment. It is easily forgotten.

Of this it is said: Zakhor! Remember!

And furthermore it is said: Shamor and Zakhor are one, Guarding and Remembering are one.

Remember!

Meetings with Remarkable Messengers

שָלוֹם עֲלֵיכֶם מַלְאֲכֵי הַשָרֵת מַלְאֲכֵי עֶלְיו

Sometimes, when the world of Spirit brushes against our own, tiny ripples arise and drift across our consciousness. These extra-ordinary experiences are called angels, or messengers.

A mystical hymn about such encounters is chanted every Sabbath eve: Shalom Aleikhem Malaakhei ha Sharet, “Welcome to you, ministering angels.” It consists of four short verses:

Shalom Aleikhem: Welcome, Ministering angels. This is a courteous greeting, but it is tentative, and we must enquire: Are you truly Messengers from on high? Did you come from the Source of All Being, or are you figments of my fancy?

 Bo’akhem Leshalom: Come, Messengers from on high, who are indeed messengers from the Source of All Being. Do not pass me by, O angels from on high, enter my tent, enjoy my hospitality, abide with me!

 Barkhuni Leshalom: Bless me, Messengers from on high, angels from the Source of All Being. Bless me, know me, touch me, name me, shine your light upon my soul, leave your mark upon my heart!

 Tzeytkhem leshalom: Farewell, Messengers from on high, go to your place in peace. I cannot hold you back; but know, should you return I shall be here.

A Prayer and a Commandment

כי תעביר ממשלת זדון מן הארץ                                                                      צדק צדק תרדוף Justice, Justice pursue”                   “Remove the wicked kingdom from the earth”

Remove the wicked kingdom from the earth” is one the many supplications that we offer during the High Holidays. It articulates hope for a redeemed world, for a new dispensation in which primal goodness is restored and all life is realigned with H’. Its envisages a new age, though one whose fulfillment is not possible within the familiar continuum of past, present and future, for it exists outside of time; we cannot predict the moment of its arrival, nor may we organize our lives on the assumption that its advent is close. But neither may we desist from yearning for it.

Justice, Justice pursue,” on the other hand, is a commandment from the Torah that we confront that wicked kingdom Continue reading “A Prayer and a Commandment” »

A Journey from Rosh Ha-Shanah to Yom Kippur (and back)

We enter Rosh HaShanah with a powerful awareness that H’ is Other; the liturgy insistently employs the image of King, a majestic, all-powerful being that governs our destinies, weighs us in the balance, is unpredictable in judgments, and is barely approachable. The gulf is almost unbridgeable.

יהוה מלך

Ten days later, the Yom Kippur services conclude with the exultant cry, repeated seven times, “H’ is All,*” in which we proclaim the Unity of all Being. God and the world, Creator and Creation, are One. The veils are gone.

Continue reading “A Journey from Rosh Ha-Shanah to Yom Kippur (and back)” »

Coming Back, Going Forward

הֲשִׁיבֵנוּ יְהֹוָה אֵלֶיךָ וְנָשׁוּבָה
Hashiveinu, H’, veNashuvah

“Bring us back to you, H’, and we will return”

[Lamentations 5:21, Regular prayers, with special significance on the High Holidays]

Hashiveinu (“Bring us back”) is a call for input from beyond, asking for an affirmation, hoping for a sign, some kind of spiritual experience: Bring us back, awaken us, remind us, shine your light upon us, show us your face.

veNashuvah (“and we will return”) is the daily work, integrating the experience: returning, remaining awake, remembering, every day, every minute of every day.

We are rarely transformed by our spiritual experiences or insights. However powerful they may be, they are only signposts, ephemeral events; nevertheless, they can, and should, inform our being.

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